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Day 10 and 11 – Bloated is the Word That Comes to Mind

Ajima — Fri, 22 Apr 2011 14:08:32 +0000

Bloated.

That is the only word I’ve been focused on for 2 days. Why. Because I’ve been a little down following last week’s high after losing 5.5 pounds. I’m back to 200 pounds. I think it’s mainly bloating and water since I always gain 2-3 pounds each time I have a period. Lots of women experience this, it’s normal. I know I should just calm down, but I hate it. I’m just trying to focus and know that it’s not my eating.

What I ate:

Day 10

Orange Juice
Raw Peanuts
Large Spinach Salad
Large Golden Delicious Apple
Faux Nut Meat wrapped in Romaine

Day 11

Grapefruit Juice
Raw Peanuts
Large Spinach Salad with non-raw walnuts
Bag of baby carrots
Faux Nut Meat wrapped in Romaine

Both days I’ve continued to do P90X workouts. I can’t say I’ve given 100% in my workouts though. I haven’t wanted to do them because I didn’t feel like it, but I pushed through. Gotta stay focused on the goal.

Dear Lord, continue to protect me from all easter candy. Amen. LOL

Days 13-17: “It was all a dream…”

Ajima — Tue, 14 Oct 2008 14:24:13 +0000

Sweets and comfort food were always a treat for me. Not being able to have them was a punishment. That’s how I felt on Day 13 (last Friday). I felt like I was in punishment and all I wanted to soothe my pain was some ice cream. I almost didn’t get any. I went out on a midnight run (literally) like a crackhead. Away, away…in search of cold sugary goodness. I almost had to go home empty handed. But there…near the metro…like a lighthouse in the night…A 24 hour CVS selling Edy’s. Sad

I ate about 1/3 of the container.

That lead to some Chinese food (crab rangoon and steamed shrimp) on Saturday and burger/fries on Sunday. I got a hold of myself by Monday (just ate some jelly beans and a diet coke…raw the rest of the day). Sigh. I didn’t feel the goodness and freedom I been feeling eating raw food. My mind was all over the place. All I could think of was food and how I could get some more cooked food. I was trying to reason and bargain with myself. Umm…I felt crazy. Why am I talking to myself trying to get myself to see that I’m just doing the very thing that makes me unhappy and gets me further from my goals. This is really addiction and people need to start treating it like that.

After getting myself back on track yesterday I feel much better. I was 180.5 pounds this morning so I didn’t wreck too much havoc. But I did see some of my insulin rash come back and I had inflammation most of the 4 days. I started my morning with a green smoothie and 3 pieces of the raw walnut, raw almond, and agave nectar nut “candy” that I used to make the last time I went raw. This stuff really helped with my sugar cravings and gave me a lot of fiber. I don’t know why I didn’t make it sooner. Duh!!

I took a walk yesterday to try to “walk it off”…walk the cravings away. I realize boredom had a lot to do with my eating. When I got outside in the wonderful weather I felt fantastic. I thought back to walking to the corner store as a teen for relief from my person issues in the form of sugar. I realized later that day that instead of a treat, sugar was now a punishment. That’s how it feels after I eat it. Like it’s wrong…like I’ve betrayed my true intention to be healthy and beautiful. Freedom is not feeling that way. Not eating junk food as well as developing a healthy attitude toward food and eating.

Eating junk doesn’t take the pain away. Not eating junk is not a punishment. Eating healthy is true freedom…mind, body, and soul. I want freedom from cooked food, and junk food addiction. That’s my goal.

Day 12: Yesterday I fell pray to some ice cream

Ajima — Fri, 10 Oct 2008 00:19:23 +0000

Yesterday, Day 11, I tangled with my main foe…ice cream. I lost. I ate a bowl of chocolate chip cookie dough ice cream. I’m not going to beat myself up. There are going to be times when I have dessert, but I don’t want it to be like it used to be 3-5 days a week…or everyday actually. That was the way I was eating. Not just snacks…whole pints or containers of ice cream…binging.

I feel much better today. Basically had fruit all day…bananas, grapes, apples, banana chips..etc. I was 178 pounds this morning. Because ice cream was in my system I had more cravings for chocolate today…but I fought them off. I had to come straight home after work because if I had gone out browsing or shopping I think I might have faced some temptation.

I did some house cleaning. Feeling good. Taking it one day at a time.

Food is not recreation. Food is not recreation….or at least not the preferred type of recreation.

Day 6 on raw food

Ajima — Sat, 04 Oct 2008 14:45:46 +0000

Day 6 went very well

I ate:
My morning green smootie (see other days) with Kale added
1/2 cup of raw walnuts
Large Lunch salad (see other days) with red onions this time
Large apple
cup of walnuts, 1/2 cup of banana chips, and a bowl of grapes for dinner

Weight: 182

I think the green smoothies really help me not to have cravings. I didn’t have any greens in my morning smoothie on Thursday and I got hungry faster…about an hour earlier than usual. I’m experiencing hunger around 12:15 and I usually go to lunch between 12:30 and 1:00. I went to the mall after work and wasn’t really tempted by anything. I ate my after lunch/mid day snack (apple) at the mall. I also experienced no diarrhea yesterday (2 regular movements).

Today I’m going out to dinner with a friend to celebrate his b-day. I’m about to check the reservation and make a decision on what I’m going to eat. I woke up this morning weighing 181…so straying off the path is not what I’m trying to do. A sista is so happy about the way my raw journey is going and I’ve been at least 90-100% raw the

Exercise and Dried Mango

Ajima — Fri, 03 Oct 2008 15:00:31 +0000

2 Notes on my process going to the 100% raw foods world.

1) I ate dried mango from Whole Foods (low sugar, low/no sulfur) on Mon, Tues, and Wed. Forgot to add that in cause it was at night. I know, I know…it’s not raw. However, I bought it to take away my late night sweet cravings. If you’re in need of a remedy for the same…try some dried fruit. You can usually find banana chips with little to no extra sugar on them. That’s what I’m going to buy tonight since I’m out of dried mango.

2) I only exercised Sunday (my first day on) and Monday. I started feeling like the inflammation in my hip that I experienced in June was coming back, and it scared me so outside of some light toning with my 5 pound weights on Tuesday and Thursday I’ve not exercised. I think that’s important to note seeing my rapid weight loss so far.

Dr. Afrika said in his DVD that I own that if you can gain weight sitting on your ass you can very well lose it sitting on your ass too. LOL He just might be right, huh.

Day 3…Back to Raw

Ajima — Tue, 30 Sep 2008 20:17:51 +0000

I really wasn’t ready to start my raw journey again when I started this blog earlier this year. I’ve been raw..again…for 3 days after a lot of soul searching and prep. So now, after a 1 week detox in preparation…I’m back to Raw Food only and have been so for 3 days. Now, I include frozen fruit in my definition of raw…just in case someone wants to correct me. I don’t follow a vegan way of eating or any other one per se. I eat what I eat…and my highest desire at this time in terms of eating is to be 100% heatlhy and natural in terms of eating.

Weight today: 184.5

What I ate today (so far):

Green smoothie with 2 bananas about a cup of frozen mango and a cup of frozen blue berries.
1 large apple
1/2 cup of raw walnuts
Salad with romaine, sunflower seeds, olives, olive oil, carrots, and mushrooms

I took a photo yesterday after working out (walking on the treadmill for an hour) in the morning in my sports bra and capri pants. Ugh…it was hard…because right now I wouldn’t want to show that to the whole world. I plan to take another photo at the end of the month and maybe…just maybe…posting it here. Lord! I know. It’s good motivation. Who cares about the before pic if the after is wonderful, right? But, really…I love myself now. That’s why I’m making this change in my life. So I can show myself love in being healthy and happy. Being free from dieting, free from bad self esteem in a world that tells you to love your fat self then tells you via commericals, media, etc how bad you look in comparison to the “ideal” images they present to you. No wonder the diet industry is huge.

Challenges for the day:

I have only had 2-3 strong cravings/thoughts about sugar and sweets. I read something great that Raw Food Coach Angela Stokes (she was just on CNN last week and got some much traffic her site crashed) wrote that helped me gain perspective. She wrote that food in cans and boxes isn’t really food to her anymore. I decided that was a good way to look at it. The food is full of dye, preservatives, etc. It’s like “food-product” compared to apples, oranges, etc.

Also, I was a little sore in my right hip today. That caused some concern because I had some inflammation in my hip from exercising without arch supports (I didn’t know I needed them till I went to the doctor). What can help that condition you ask? Weight loss. Another reason I’m making this change.

So, that’s all for today. Maybe I’ll post again tonight. Here’s to great beginnings.