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My head hurts

Ajima — Wed, 26 May 2010 18:42:34 +0000

All my recovering sugar addicts out there know what I’m going through. My head hurts. Not with a typical, throb. I wouldn’t call it a headache. It feels more like pressure. It happened the last time I was 90% raw for a few days and it will pass. Sugar is not my master. Sugar is not to blame. If I want to change, I have the power to change and I’m claiming that power now.

Since Monday I’ve been 90-100% raw each day and exercised 30 min each day. I’m down 2 pounds over this period. I feel like this is the place, the moment, the feeling, the place in time where my paradigm shifts. I’m changing.

I made nut meat delight last night with soaked walnuts, red onion, and celery all blended in a blender. Then I seasoned it with cilantro, cummin, Lowery’s, and pepper. I put the blend in romaine leaves and ate it lettuce wrap style. YUMMY!

I’ve been going through cravings. I haven’t had much of an appetite in the evenings. All I want after work is some juice or soda and microwaved butter popcorn. Sigh. I’m eating really well during the day so I’m sure that’s part of the issue. I think it’s more so rebellion. You know how little kids act when you tell them they can’t have something. They pout. They resist. I think that somewhere in my subconscious, there is a lil girl pouting because I’m not giving her any sugar. Well, just like a good parent, I’m training my body in the way that it should go. I’m giving myself discipline and direction. It’s an awesome gift to give, too.

I’ll have to make a green smoothie when I get home. Time to take time and visualize this healthy and happy body that will be birthed out of the changes I’m making in the NOW.

Day 24 and 25: back on track

Ajima — Wed, 22 Oct 2008 19:50:02 +0000

Day 23 ended with no meat, no sugar…just a big salad with sunflower seeds, grapes, and some olives later that night. Maybe my body wanted some fat. I had a lil headache but it passes. I’m accustomed to having chocolate when I’m on my monthly (TMI…it’s been different. I can really tell I’ve been eating differently. You ladies know what I mean.), so it was a bit of a struggle after work. Struggle in the mind. I just went home…no stops. It works out better that way.

Day 25

Weight: didn’t feel like weighing myself today.

Today I’ve had an apple, my usual big lunch salad, and a box of rasberries. No candy, nothing that would have me tripping out later. Oh I’m such a creature of habit. i bought a new receipe e-book yesterday from Raw Freedom Community. I can’t wait to make some of the stuff!!! OH my goodness. The food looks so good in the photos. I need some options. I realize that I’m getting bored. I don’t want to be cooking everynight, but I need some options.

I’ve also been watching Louise Hay’s You Can Change Your Life Series on YouTube. I love it. She says the key to good living is to love yourself. I think she’s right. It’s hard though to look in the mirror and say “I love and accept me right now, as I am right now”. I want to be able to say that. It’s not just about weight, but that has been a major issue for me since I was 8 (my first “diet” per doctor’s orders). Oh…the journey…the journey.

Day 5…beginning Day 6: Have back up? Check!

Ajima — Fri, 03 Oct 2008 12:51:35 +0000

Yesterday was a good day. The only problem was that I forgot my after lunch snack (fruit) and was really hungry from around 3 till I got a chance to grab a banana at Au Bon Pain. That was a little rough. I have to remember to carry some back up food. I had some bad diarrhea too, but when I went raw in 2006 for 3 months I remember dealing with that during the first 2 weeks and then it went away. I took some psyllium husk in my green smoothie this morning to help cleanse. I think it’s going to be a good day.

Day 5 I ate:
Green smoothie with spinach, 2 bananas, frozen mango, and frozen blueberries
3/4 cup of raw walnuts
Large salad with olives, carrots, romaine, sunflower seeds, mushrooms, and olive oil
1 banana
Large salad with walnuts and olive oil

Day 5 Weight: 182.5

Today so far I’ve just had my morning green smoothie. Today I added Kale to the mix of regular ingredients that I use wanting more dark greens. It was a lil “wheatgrass”-ish, but not that strong. It was very very green. LOL.

I weight myself everyday when I wake up and this morning the scale said 181.5. So, so far I’m losing about .5 to 1 pound each day. I’m sure that has a lot to do with the drastic reduction of calories. You have to understand…I was eating a LOT of sugar. My meals were fairly healthy but I was a chocolate and ice cream addict with a habit of overeating and binging out on sugar at least 3 times a week or more. I could go through 1300 in one evening with burgers and a pint of Ben and Jerry’s on top of what I had for breakfast and lunch. So, I’m sure it’s a shock to the system…but a good shock.

Yesterday I went to the grocery store to get Kale and Spinach and I felt weird but not very tempted. I would catch myself looking at some cooked familiar friend and then realize…I don’t want that…I want freedom. I’m not willing to trade the freedom of weight loss. I’m not willing to trade in the freedom of not worrying and fretting over what I’m going to eat. I’m not willing to start the bumpy ride of self hate base on eating bad things and beating myself up. I’m Free and I won’t be a slave to my habits or my stomach. I’m free.

Day 4: Feeling good, feeling dry

Ajima — Wed, 01 Oct 2008 18:06:20 +0000

I need some lotion. I am so dry. My hands and my legs have shown signs of dryness. That would be ASH. You know what I’m talking about sistas and brothers. Amen. I love Nubian Heritage products and I’m about to slather on some of their chocolate smelling cocoa butter lotion after this post. LOL

Yesterday I had a package of fresh raspberries for dinner. Wasn’t that hungry. I was on the phone all night talking to my best friend about a situation with some other of our friends that pissed me off. There was a birthday party and some how we weren’t invited. So high school, right. I know. So, I bitched about it and I’m over it. However, I was proud that I didn’t run out for any nasty goodies out of frustration and hurt. Very proud of myself. Talking it out works much better than eating the pain away. Who knew?

Weight: 184

What I’ve eaten so far:
Green Smoothie: Spinach, frozen mango, 1 banana, frozen blueberries
1/2 cup of walnuts
Large salad with sunflower seeds, olives, mushrooms, carrots and olive oil

I had some stronger hunger pains today right before lunch. They were strongest so far and not terrible, but strong. I’ve noticed my skin is clearing up and looks more healthy. I have an insulin imbalance that causes a dark coating on certian areas of my skin like my neck. That is looking better today as well, although as I was cleansing and decreasing my sugar intake during the month of September, that had been getting lighter and lighter. I feel good. OH and…2 movements of the bowels so far today (I know…TMI…but it’s part of the cleansing process).

Not thinking about and worrying about what I’m going to eat or not eat makes me feel so FREE. That is one of the best things about this life change. I suggest that you not tell an whole lot of people about going raw when you start, because if people were asking and questioning me right now…it would make me think about food and what I was “missing”. I’m sure as my body changes I will get plenty of extra attention directed at how I’m transforming and looking so beautiful. LOL Right now I’m focused and happy.