I really didn’t realize until now how much emotional eating I was doing. Now that I’ve been focused on eating when I’m actually hungry…I eat so much less and I want food so much less. I think that 50% of my eating was simply emotional and out of habit. There is no way to be satisfied when you’re not eating to meet a physical need. You can eat and eat and eat and eat and if the real source of your “hunger” is not met…the hunger never ends. If you’re bored, tired, lonely, stressed…you can’s solve those issues with food. They are still there when you finnish your meal, your snack. This is what I’ve known, but now I’m living it. I’m really understanding it.
What is the real answer…self love. Loving yourself and giving your self something that can soothe your issues. the more I tell myself that I’m beautiful and that I love myself it’s easier to change my ways. The more I think about being compassionate to myself, I want to make changes out of love. Love is my motivation for health…not just fitting into some standard of beauty based on size. If I love myself I don’t want to be consumed by dieting or beating myself up about food. I don’t want to just eat junk, I want to eat in a way that will make me less likely to have cancer or diabetes. I want to live a long, healthy and happy life
]]>OH…I forgot. When I went to the gym on Saturday I was down 2 pounds (196 to 194). YAY!
Monday: The diarrhea is here. Angela Stokes talks about it in her raw food journey on rawreform.com. It wasn’t horrible, but my stool was very loose. I took and enema so I think that helped. The wildest thing about the day was that I really had no cravings. I was reading that cravings has a lot to do with what is in your colon…food lingering too long in the body. I really really tried to eat really bad…lol. Meaning…I went to CVS thinking I was going to buy some chocolate…at least some salty cashews. But I didn’t. I did end up eating some fried shrimp…social eating. But, they didn’t taste good at all. I’ll have to get some water and Epson salt on the case tonight. I was so surprised. The tasted OK…Alright…so so. I really didn’t want them…I just picked an appetizer with minimal sugar and no chicken or beef. Sigh! But I’m not going to tear myself down or feel bad. In the end, it just reinforced the feeling that I’m looking for. The feeling that food can not improve my mood and that my addiction to food as a mood altering drug is becoming less.
Other things I ate today
Banana and Grapes for breakfast
Large Salad for Lunch – Romaine, Garbonzo beans, Sunflower seed, Black olives, Mushrooms, Olive oil and Vinegar.
NO candy. No chocolate. For that I’m proud!!!
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