I got the most sour terrible grapes from Harris Teeter. They were 99 cents per pound so I should have known. TERRIBLE. However, I was proud of myself because I’d walked all over Pentagon City Fashion Mall and hadn’t fell to any of the food court temptations. Oh, I looked, believe me. However, I didn’t get any fast food. I went to Harris Teeter for a bag of salad and all I got was that and the grapes. Maybe it was because after looking at all those clothes I didn’t want to do something that would make me feel fat or make me think “If you eat that you aren’t moving closer to health and wellness!”. I really don’t want this process to be about good or bad food though. I want it to be about health…not weight loss. I have to work on my thoughts about good or bad food so that if I do eat something junk or sugary…I won’t judge myself.
OH…I forgot. When I went to the gym on Saturday I was down 2 pounds (196 to 194). YAY!
Monday: The diarrhea is here. Angela Stokes talks about it in her raw food journey on rawreform.com. It wasn’t horrible, but my stool was very loose. I took and enema so I think that helped. The wildest thing about the day was that I really had no cravings. I was reading that cravings has a lot to do with what is in your colon…food lingering too long in the body. I really really tried to eat really bad…lol. Meaning…I went to CVS thinking I was going to buy some chocolate…at least some salty cashews. But I didn’t. I did end up eating some fried shrimp…social eating. But, they didn’t taste good at all. I’ll have to get some water and Epson salt on the case tonight. I was so surprised. The tasted OK…Alright…so so. I really didn’t want them…I just picked an appetizer with minimal sugar and no chicken or beef. Sigh! But I’m not going to tear myself down or feel bad. In the end, it just reinforced the feeling that I’m looking for. The feeling that food can not improve my mood and that my addiction to food as a mood altering drug is becoming less.
Other things I ate today
Banana and Grapes for breakfast
Large Salad for Lunch – Romaine, Garbonzo beans, Sunflower seed, Black olives, Mushrooms, Olive oil and Vinegar.
NO candy. No chocolate. For that I’m proud!!!