water – Urban Raw Food

Day 9: Recovering from sugar

Ajima — Tue, 07 Oct 2008 12:00:06 +0000

Day 9/Monday

I think I was recovering from the sugar in the drinks I had Sunday night yesterday. The inflammation in my hip acted up a bit more. I’ve been just walking in the city for exercise and yesterday I part of walk was uphill. I took an Ibuprofen and all was well.

Weight: 180.5

What I ate:

Green smoothie with Kale (no blueberries)
3/4 cup walnuts
banana chips
Large salad (red onions, romaine, walnuts, sunflower seeds)

I really don’t think I ate enough yesterday. I was off of work and didn’t feel well. Just wasn’t hungry. I also don’t think I drank enough water. I’ll do much better today.

It’s going well, but I really want to be 100% raw

Ajima — Fri, 18 Apr 2008 00:54:49 +0000

My emotional eating continues to be the major revelation I’m having in the process. The reason I’ve eaten to much over the years has nothing to do with hunger or physical need. I eat because I’m lonely, fearful, sad, stressed, confused, bored, lonely, lol. I’m a really happy person, but I wear the mask like everyone else. I’ve been dieting for so long, eating and feeling bad for so long, wishing I was smaller and cuter for so long, envying other people for so long…I’ve wasted a whole lot of time. I realize that I haven’t been happy with my weight since my Junior year of college (at around 160 pounds). That was about 8 years ago. So for eight years I’ve been waisting time. For eight years I’ve been beating myself up. For eight years I’ve been trying various diet plans and getting bigger every year. I could probably teach a college level class on dieting plans…the pros and cons…how to follow them…etc. *Sigh*

It’s time to go 100% raw. It’s time to commit. I’ve been doing well. I’ve been at least 80% raw everyday. I’ve been drinking about 20-24 oz of water per day. I just still have that psychological hurdle to overcome. The cooked food addiction. The addiction that is connected to the cravings. The addiction that makes excuses. I want to stop meeting my emotional needs with food.

Food does not run me. Food does not control me. That is what I want to live…not just strive for, but live. I want to be complete…whole…healed.

Fried Plantains and Potatoes

Ajima — Thu, 10 Apr 2008 01:25:50 +0000

Today I had bananas, baby carrots, a cup of commercial apple sauce, my usual lunch salad with onions and spinach added, lots of water and…fried plantains and fried potatoes. It wasn’t so bad that I ate them…it’s vegan. However, the problem was that I wasn’t really hungry. Went to Silver Spring to with a friend and just…did some social eating. I went to the gym afterwards since I’d planned to go there anyway and worked out for 30 min. Afterward I felt stiffness in my shoulders and kinda sluggish. I need to drink some water…I still kinda feel like that. Tax time and my job are stressing me a bit. It can be stressful being creative. I’ll be ok. Even though I’ve been stressed I still haven’t resorted to any candy or chocolate. I’m very, very proud of myself for that.

All in all it was a good day.

I also bought a new Raw Foods book, 12 Steps to Raw Foods by Victoria Boutenko. I’m excited about reading it. I think it will help me with the dependency/addiction side of my eating.