Mainly…

• The circumference of my midsection is smaller.  I can tell because I’m wearing a form-fitting top today and I can really see a difference.
• Let’s just say…more frequent pooping.  LOL
• More energy – I was not tired at midnight last night.  Very strange for a weekday

Haven’t had much of an issue with gas.  In the past adding psyllium husk to my smoothies every few days kept that at bay, so that’s what I’m doing now.  I’m averaging 40-50 oz of water during the day to try to keep any toxic episode at bay.

Transformation takes time and effort.  My body didn’t get all clogged with toxins and fat overnight.  I’m excited about greater health and wellness and I welcome it into my life as I continue my raw foods journey.

I’m so tired of myself.  That is the best way I can put it.  As I look back over the past 6 months, I must say that I was depressed after getting back up over 200 pound (203 in April) and I was just eating whatever I felt like.  I guess I gave up.   Just 2 years ago at this time I was really dedicated to my health and wellness.  Now, I can’t even get into most of my size 12 clothes.  Back to the dreaded 14.  Booo!  LOL

I was nearing the end of my P90X experience in late April.  I really like p90x, but the benefit for me was strength and muscle gain…not weight loss.  So, I was helped and discouraged at the same time, because the numbers on the scale barely changed in 90 days.  Sure, diet had something to do with the lack of loss too.  For the 2 weeks that I was raw on p90x, I lost 6 pounds.  But that was just the 2 weeks.  LOL.  I need counseling, right?

Now I’m back to what truly, truly works for me.  RAW FOOD!  It’s a struggle.  I had a run in with some teriyaki chicken that I’m not too proud about as I was working to transition back last week.  Hey, but I still lost weight and my mind is clear.  The biggest change: No candy!  No donuts, brownies, etc.  Kicking the sugar habit!!  This week I’ll be 80% raw.  Taking each day as it comes and not beating myself up.

Oh,  I’m also taking a multivitamin and 100mg of 5-HTp each morning with 16 oz of water.  Gotta start the morning off with water y’all.  A whole apple and a huge class of carrot juice follow most mornings.

We shall see…

This was a very busy time.  I had a presentation on Friday so I was really busy.  I made an effort to NOT eat candy in the office this week.  Tuesday I had a few pieces.  Wed and Thurs I was successful.

Tues

• Grapefruit Juice
• Raw Peanuts
• Large Salad
• Carrot Sticks
• 4 Tootsie Rolls
• Green Smoothie

What I Ate:

• Grapefruit Juice
• Golden Delicious apple
• Baby Carrots
• Large salad from Chop’t
• Sunflower Seeds
• 2 Pickles
• Faux lasagna

One thing I haven’t slacked on has been doing my P90X workouts. I cut my foot in a dressing room yesterday (Long story.  Never get hurt in Macy’s.  Believe me.) and still did Kempo X.  Dedication paid off this morning when I saw the scale was down .5 pounds and the dress I’m wearing looks good.  I guess if you can’t lose pounds, at least lose inches, right?

My goal for today is no office candy or other sweets.  So far so good.  Sugar is a major part of my food addiction.  Raw food is my medication.

Today’s weight 198.5.  Thank goodness.

What I ate

• Grapefruit Juice
• Raw Peanuts
• Sandwich bag full of carrots
• Large salad

Tomorrow is another day.

That is the only word I’ve been focused on for 2 days.  Why.  Because I’ve been a little down following last week’s high after losing 5.5 pounds.  I’m back to 200 pounds.  I think it’s mainly bloating and water since I always gain 2-3 pounds each time I have a period.  Lots of women experience this, it’s normal.  I know I should just calm down, but I hate it.  I’m just trying to focus and know that it’s not my eating.

What I ate:

Day 10

Orange Juice
Raw Peanuts
Large Spinach Salad
Large Golden Delicious Apple
Faux Nut Meat wrapped in Romaine

Day 11

Grapefruit Juice
Raw Peanuts
Large Spinach Salad with non-raw walnuts
Bag of baby carrots
Faux Nut Meat wrapped in Romaine

Both days I’ve continued to do P90X workouts.  I can’t say I’ve given 100% in my workouts though.  I haven’t wanted to do them because I didn’t feel like it, but I pushed through.  Gotta stay focused on the goal.

Dear Lord, continue to protect me from all easter candy. Amen.  LOL

Day 7 was really busy.  As of the morning I was 197 pounds.  I had a lot to do on Sunday and I had by baby with me (my Peekapoo, Daisy).  Went to Eastern Market in DC to check out the fresh produce and had Fresh Lemonade and some fruit to start the day.  Later I realized that I actually should have bought some fruit to take with me so I ended up eating some dried fruit strips in the afternoon.  Got home and had a nice green smoothie with 2 bananas, mango, and spinach.  Ended the night with raw nuts (peanuts, sunflower seeds, and cashews) with a little sea salt sprinkled on them.  My water intake could have been better but I tried to make up for it before bed.  Did P90X with my baby and went to bed very tired.

I wasn’t really that hungry.  I think I was stressed out by my taxes (That I didn’t start on until Sat).  Ugh…Maryland taxes are HIGH!  Couple that with Aunt Flo at the door with my monthly and you get a recipe for diet hell.  Normally I would have grabbed for chocolate or ice cream, but the cravings weren’t there and I thank goodness!  That is real change for me.  I’m no longer coping with life’s challenges with food.  I’m facing life and living it.

I see wellness manifesting in my life.

I snacked for lunch (2 nut/date balls and a pickle.  I know, weird right).

I ended up eating a couple of bites of my boyfriend’s shrimp/pesto/quinoa/wild rice/sugar peas dish.  It’s a dish I always made for him and it’s one of my favorites.  In keeping with the challenge, I didn’t beat myself up, but I did want to be honest and tell the world.

At the start of day six I was 198 and as of day 7 I’m 197.  Just proves that just by doing 70-80% raw you can still see changes.  Whoo Hoo.

Yesterday as also my rest day on P90X.  Back to exercise today.

What I ate:

• 1 Banana
• Grapefruit juice
• 4 nut/date balls
• Large spinach salad with apples, oranges, walnuts, kalamata olives, and red onion
• 2 apples for dinner

For the past few days I haven’t been hungry much in the evenings.  That’s actually a great thing for me because in the past nighttime cravings have been my downfall.  I continue to work out every night with my boyfriend doing P90X so that’s been great too.

Oh Fast Food, You almost got me, but I won.  Nothing like sitting in the drive through with ice cream on your mind (because anything else would smell like fast food and my boyfriend would know) and having an epiphany.   I realized that I was listening to the old, sick, sad me and that the real me was the one behind the wheel.  I drove away with a smile on my lips and peace in my heart.

What I ate:

• Grapefruit juice
• Handful of raw peanuts
• Bag of baby carrots (my tummy hurt after this.  Ow.  Felt better after I got my salad.)
• Large Lunch Salad
• 1 mini Almond Joy
• 2 raw nut/date balls (not really hungry last night)

I woke up this morning at 200 pounds (down from 202.5 on monday).  Very happy about that.