Today was the first day that I really realized how much my life was controlled by food. I was constantly thinking about what I was going to eat…rationalizing what was “good” or “bad”. I was worried about eating bad things. I wasn’t consumed with eating…I just thought about it way too much because it’s connected to my weight…and my weight is connected to my self esteem…the way I feel about myself. The way I feel about myself is something I have to confront and/or embrace everyday. Today I felt good about me. I got a pedicure and my brows arched. I went down to the National Mall and put my feet in the huge fountain at the Sculpture garden. The huge jets of water combine like every 30 min…and you can see rainbows in the water from the way the sun shines through. Beautiful…you’d have to see it. 🙂 I also went to the National Museam of Art…saw a couple Picassos…some Degas sculptures. Awesome. The coolest thing was that I was present…in the moment…not distracted.
What I ate:
Green smoothie: Kale, 1 banana, frozen blueberries, and spinach
1 cup of walnuts
large salad with walnuts, red onion, mushrooms, and sunflower seeds
I walked at least 3 miles…maybe 3.5 today. I walked from the nail parlor to the mall…it’s a hike. I might have walked even more…I’d have to check Google Maps. I was kinda tired after, but not extremely so. I feel really good right now (it’s around 9pm) and I have lots of energy. Life is good. Oh…I didn’t have to face the challenge of eating out today…dinner got rescheduled for tomorrow. I’m hopeful that I’ll just be satisfied with salad. I’m not naive enough to think it won’t be challenging. I know what I want…I don’t want to go backwards.