Day 5…beginning Day 6: Have back up? Check!

Yesterday was a good day.  The only problem was that I forgot my after lunch snack (fruit) and was really hungry from around 3 till I got a chance to grab a banana at Au Bon Pain.  That was a little rough.  I have to remember to carry some back up food.  I had some bad diarrhea too, but when I went raw in 2006 for 3 months I remember dealing with that during the first 2 weeks and then it went away.  I took some psyllium husk in my green smoothie this morning to help cleanse.  I think it’s going to be a good day.

Day 5 I ate:
Green smoothie with spinach, 2 bananas, frozen mango, and frozen blueberries
3/4 cup of raw walnuts
Large salad with olives, carrots, romaine, sunflower seeds, mushrooms, and olive oil
1 banana
Large salad with walnuts and olive oil

Day 5 Weight: 182.5

Today so far I’ve just had my morning green smoothie.  Today I added Kale to the mix of regular ingredients that I use wanting more dark greens.  It was a lil “wheatgrass”-ish, but not that strong.  It was very very green.  LOL.

I weight myself everyday when I wake up and this morning the scale said 181.5.  So, so far I’m losing about .5 to 1 pound each day.  I’m sure that has a lot to do with the drastic reduction of calories.  You have to understand…I was eating a LOT of sugar.  My meals were fairly healthy but I was a chocolate and ice cream addict with a habit of overeating and binging out on sugar at least 3 times a week or more.  I could go through 1300 in one evening with burgers and a pint of Ben and Jerry’s on top of what I had for breakfast and lunch.  So, I’m sure it’s a shock to the system…but a good shock.

Yesterday I went to the grocery store to get Kale and Spinach and I felt weird but not very tempted.  I would catch myself looking at some cooked familiar friend and then realize…I don’t want that…I want freedom.  I’m not willing to trade the freedom of weight loss.  I’m not willing to trade in the freedom of not worrying and fretting over what I’m going to eat.  I’m not willing to start the bumpy ride of self hate base on eating bad things and beating myself up.  I’m Free and I won’t be a slave to my habits or my stomach.  I’m free.